Talk therapy
I guess these first postings will dwell on what it is I'm doing with this here blog. So far, it's felt a little like the few therapy sessions I've had: a wise-seeming therapist asking me simple questions; tongue-tied me in a panic, trying to answer in a way that is both true and somehow articulable, eventually saying something that's only a shadow of either.
Right now, my therapist is asking: why are you so afraid to draw attention to your new blog?
Good question. It's not that I don't want readers; clearly my starting this blog is about wanting to connect with others. But I don't want to ASK for readers, to appear as if I want to be noticed and liked and accepted as legitimate. I don't want to burden anyone with a sense of obligation to read this blog. Who am I to think that anyone would be interested in my musings??? This, of course, gets to the heart of my resistance to publication.
Fuck it. I'm sick of being so damned humble and self-conscious. I'm just going to do this, come of it what may. Maybe tomorrow.
posted by Margi @ 9:42 AM
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7 Comments:
Found you! Welcome to the blogosphere, Margi! I'm glad that you've decided to stop being so damned humble and self-conscious. Stumbling out onto teh whole wide internets seems like an act of hubris at first (at least it did for me), but it's been worth it!
Wow, my favorite blogger as my first commenter! Thanks for breaking the ice! You actually know me under a different name as a sometime commenting pixie. The recent discussion over at Lucy's made me finally decide I needed to do this.
By the way, Phantom--and here I am hubristically assuming you'll return to read this--did you find me because I linked to you? How does that work? (Uh, I'm a bit slow on the uptake with the tech-aspect of this new venture.)
Yeah, I have some Firefox plug-in that Julie at No Fancy Name recommended -- Blogger Web Comments -- that picked up the link. That's how I found you. I don't think I can guess what name you used as a commenting pixie, though.
But before you start worrying that you somehow obligated me to comment by linking to me, I should note that I don't usually comment on blogs that link to mine if I don't have a previous relationship with the blogger. If I didn't find what you wrote to be interesting, I would have just quietly slipped away without commenting.
But, um, (scuffling the dirt with my toe) thanks for the compliments.
Thank you, Phantom, for the info, and for your reassurances. I don't mean to be coy about the name, by the way; just don't want to blow my anonymity right off the bat. (I commented over at your place with my "real" name.) I must say, though, this pseudonym feels very awkward.
I'm a big fan of blogging as therapy :) I can completely empathise with your second last paragraph, as well as the previous post.
I'm glad you decided to start blogging and tell people about it.
Hi Lucy! Thanks for stopping by!
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